Random Thoughts

I took these pictures yesterday, and the lighting was good, so it really captured his sweet face the way it really looks. I have been so emotional and sentimental the past couple of days, mainly due to the death of Elizabeth McCullough, the young mother my mom and sister work with, and on top of that James has been so perfect, fun, and sweet lately, so I just wanted to put some pictures up of my sweet little love who just has such a strong-hold over my heart.
I have had an achy heart non-stop, and it goes back and forth between a good and bad feeling. Good when I look at my loved ones, and bad when I think of Elizabeth's husband, children, and mother. I have been getting weepy at everything!
I was listening to the music on one of James's toys, which plays prettier music than most toys, and "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" came on. You're going to think this is crazy, but it really is so pretty, because it sounds like an organ, and it has several part harmony, and the way they play it is really pretty. Well, it sounded like wedding music, and I was looking into my boy's sweet, big blue, puppy dog eyes (I'm tearing up right now) and I just started crying thinking about him getting married one day and how fast it's going to fly. How crazy is that?! I know he's only a year old, and I don't usually think that far ahead, but I think this situation just makes you that way.
The song is going through my head over and over and over, and I just want to go wake him up right now and give him a hug! (Don't worry, I'm not that stupid!) This age has it's hard moments, but he has been so much fun lately we can hardly stand it. Here are a few things that I have to write down so I don't forget.

~Josh came home yesterday, and James yelled, "DAAADDYYYYY!!!". James has been so extra affectionate lately, and really into us. He's still into everyone else, too, but he's just realizing how much he loves us. He's playing little games where he wants us to chase him, and when we do, he starts cracking up or screaming because he's so excited. He's using our names more and more, and it breaks my heart when he calls out for me when I have to leave him (like at church). I'm starting to really feel the whole "mom thing" in a new way. When someone starts calling you mama, it just brings a whole new feeling to motherhood. He has this dramatic thing going on, where he will cry and call out for something (like "pa....ci, pa.....ci, pa....ci!") and then as soon as I give it to him he laughs. Today after mother's day out, I tried to get him to take a nap.
He cried and cried, so I went in there and could tell he wasn't going to go to sleep. I picked him up and turned off the fan, and then he immediately started laughing like this, "he...hehe...hehe...hehe". I busted out laughing. I think he knows what's up. I'm dying to see what he's going to be like as a 2 year old! I also forgot to mention that 4 of his molars have made their way out of his gums. He was working on them a few weeks ago, and I think he's finally over the pain. Enough rambling for now!