Perspective

I barely mentioned perspective in my last blog, but that has been a huge part of all of this to me. My perspective had been completely off (especially during high school and college), and it was centered around me. God continued throughout the summer to slowly open up little doors for me that led to more and more wisdom and understanding. I felt like it all started coming together for the first time, what it was all about (Not that we will EVER know what it is ALL about until we get to heaven, but things were generally starting to become more clear). Then, I got busy with school starting and completely lost focus again. Well, about a week after school started, one of our Kindergarten teachers went to get her hair done and collapsed on the ground. I was actually at the school on that Saturday when some of the teachers got the first news of it happening. By Sunday, we were all told that she had barely any brain activity going on and that if she made it, she would be a vegetable. I kept thinking, I barely know her, but she was still in my mind from seeing her in the hallway yesterday! She always gave me a big smile and asked me how I was doing. How could I have just talked to her Friday, and now she'll never be the same?? Well, I saw God work in so many amazing ways through this tragedy. I know that not every teacher at my school is a Christian (most are, though), but the Monday after that, our Principal called a faculty meeting to talk about it, and they decided right then and there to take it to the Lord in prayer! I thought that was so awesome that they did that in a secular work place! I was brought to tears being able to pray openly with all of my co-workers. The feeling in that room was amazing. Some of the teachers decided to start praying every day after school in a room, just pleading with God to restore her. Two incredible things came of that. First, Deby made a miraculous recovery that shocked even the doctors. Every day or week it was something else that came back. What a blessing that was!! Second, the feeling I had every day as I left school after the prayer group was the best feeling I had felt in a long time. Spending the end of my work day with my sisters in Christ in prayer just made me realize that that was what it was all about. It put life into perspective (the right perspective), and I felt so much peace and contentment from spending that time with God. (That time is usually such a busy, frantic, tired time when I'm worn out from the day). I realized that God's way is so much more fulfilling than the way I usually make for myself. (By the way, as I'm writing this, I'm realizing that I need to start doing this again! This is good therapy, Amanda!) My Bible class teacher put it in a good way. He said that God created us and knows exactly how to fill us up, satisfy us, make us whole, and knows the only way to make us completely content. We go about our lives trying to do it ourselves, but it only leads to more hunger and thirst and lonliness. An update on the teacher, she is home now, still recovering, but has her personality back, her sense of humor, and is doing really well. Her memory is still not completely back, but she truly is a miracle.